Wednesday, 10/07/2020

23:55 turn maybes into wins

good things- maybes into wins!

covid? it's wat you do with it!

do hot htink at a loss. no point in focusing on obvious wins. it's important to recognize when a win is just a maybe and actively work towards it. don't wish it, make it happen. be very stubborn about turning those maybes into wins. don't rely on the easy wins for carrying you along

23:58 on maintaining attention post from ava

the best skill to develop isn't progress, it's maintainence; not just getting to your goal, but keeping up with it and working to sustain your quality of life, your skills, your status day after day. or you will lose them

western philosophy: doing; eastern: being. we must reconcile the two. sometimes it is hard to write - how do people do it? - but you have to eke things out line by line regardless.

god i love her writing



find that true product market fit do whatever you can to get that initial traction the product market fit isnt always obvious! stay lean until you have traction!

trusting yourself descriptive exposition -> reason for the exposition -> reason stands by the rationale behind the topic.

how you feel determines what you believe, and what you believe determines everything. belief is deeply aesthetic.

my beliefs are ugly, i think.

morality is merely aesthetic: Parfit may believe in aesthetic; Kant believes that taste shares characteristics in moral judgement

many require constant validation of their beliefs some are pushed heavily towards the most socially validated paths of achievement writing: how to be alone. how to pay attention when nobody is paying attention to me. start to learn what you find beautiful. this is photography for me

if you don't delineate reality for yourself, other people will rush in to do it for uou. isolation forces uou to take responsibility for my own actions and beliefs never hide from yourself to please others choice by choice one teaches themselves who they are. self wordh is continuous self respect - Joan Didion

green and gold, next day

In the beginning I imagine that there were nebulae and um, planets being formed and the one who dreamed us standing in the middle of all that negative space, thinking, I guess this is how it will be.

He dreamed us. Or She did—I don’t think there was much fussiness about pronouns in the beginning. And there were agate blue rivers and valleys and buffalo streaming through fields before we paved them over and built apartment complexes and gas stations. Those came later. We ruined almost everything that was given to us in the beginning, but that very act of destruction—which was either one continuous act over many centuries or the aggregated Frankenstein of many separate actions, depending on your perspective—was of course also an act of creation. We were the smartest creatures on Earth and we used our collective intelligence to invent strip malls and Eggslut. We were dreamers. At least part-time. The rest we spent fucking our lives up mercilessly and reading Madame Bovary.

Sorry, I’m just trying to reconstruct it all for myself as a child of modernity. Sometimes I think about what would happen if all of civilization was destroyed and we were living in a post-apocalyptic world that somehow managed to resemble a pre-human world, all t


daniel everett : time with piraha, amazon tribe with no concept of abstraction. they lost interest in jesus when they realized he had never met them. they are completely uninterested in anything that falls outside of personal experience, and will not trust other things

wehre we are heading: do not mind the body and needing things to feel okay, but being a good animal isn't enough for us

what kind of mutations are worth dreaming of? adam curtis: pandora's box

active life - execution; reflective life - all nostalgia

i love visualization

sometimes a sound can paint a picture of a world an environment a fantasy i want ot make that fantasy possible for others to see, to get it out of my head and into yours

maybe this is a dream